I'm getting nowhere

Let's face it. I'm fucked up, my life's fucked up and it's getting nowhere. I've been trying too hard to get it to go somewhere. Well fuck it. Enough of this shit.

There's no title to this post cuz I just can't summarize how I am feeling. Xiu got upset at me this morning because I did not remember that today was her birthday. It's a bad thing on my part. However, I'll just like to clarify a few things. I do not remember the exact birth dates of :

1. My brother
2. My best friend
3. My other best friend
4. My other other best friend
5. My grandmother
6. My grandfather
7. Any of my cousins
8. Any of my other friends

What I'm trying to say is, I'm sorry for not knowing, but please don't take it personally. I only know the rough dates of peoples' birthdays. I do not expect anyone to know my birth date, or know roughly when it is, or give a damn about my birthday because I do not have sufficient ego to celebrate a birthday.

I'm feeling abit down after today. A whole lot of stuff that I have to do. I better start doing them now. I'm feeling underappreciated in PSE, but I'm just going to stick to doing my job. Someone's wise mother once said that the tougher something becomes, it just makes it more rewarding once it is accomplished.

On a different note, Ying's dad is feeling really under the weather. Please email me if any of you guys know of any effective alternative treatments for cancer. For those of you who are practicing faith, please add him to your prayers. Thanks.

Meesa say Smile!

I'm back from Miami Beach! Din't have time to shop there as the nearest commercial places were in South Beach which was 20 minutes away. Din't get to go clubbing either as the ladies that I went with had a tight budget. Took a couple of pictures there, will get on to it in a few days... just feel so damn tired... Drove 11 hours there and 10 hrs back. Nothing much other than that to report. Life's not been throwing much good stuff my way, but I'm thankful; it could have been worse.

I've really become deeply entrenched in my belief that perception defines reality, and that a smile is really a much better reaction to a problem than a frown. Some shit happened on this trip, and instead of launching into an argument, I just genuinely smiled and continued to be nice. Positivity really changes those around you.